Broken & Beautiful

January 25, 2009
A visit to the gulf shores to spend time with My Beloved turned out to be more than I expected. This weekend was intended to dive into His word and write a term paper for my class “The Life of Christ”.
Oh thank you My Beloved for your Holy word that speaks to my soul. Through this study of the crucifixion, I realize so boldly how You feel my heart beat through your experience of betrayal and rejection. I could go through life feeling so unworthy, so lonely but then I am snapped back to reality by My Precious Savior to know He chose me…He created me…He will never leave me…and He loves me unconditionally.
I am My Beloveds
And He is mine
7:30AM for all you morning people I spent this time alone with My Savior on the beach…walking, talking, and singing with Him.
Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus. Majesty worship His Majesty. Jesus….Jesus…Jesus, there’s just something about His name, Master…Savior…JESUS.
As I walked the shore line and listened to the sound of the waves. The roar of the ocean was so peaceful. I was embraced by His presence. It was as if everything around me in my soul and head vanished. I was in a moment just me and My Beloved. Walking in the fresh cool breeze of the ocean that My Lord has created. With each foot print of mine trailed His invisible foot print spending time with me. To all who reads do you get it? I was not alone. Readers hold on, the best is yet to come. After speaking to the Lord and singing His praises he began to talk to me. I walked along picking up shells with color, wholeness, and shapes that I was attracted to. I passed a woman that had a bag of big perfect shells and asked her how long she had been out here. She stated around 7:00AM. I told her she had found some treasures. I carried on and tried to find the perfect shells. Just a few steps away I saw a Big shell and my instant thought was this woman had missed a beauty. Then as I got closer I noticed it was cracked with a good size hole. I started to walk away and the Lord spoke to my soul and I heard the words
Broken and Beautiful

At that moment I realized, that is what it’s about. What the world means to throw away and step over or even step on. Is God’s creation. I had been careful not to step on the perfect shells so that I would not crush them…as I continued my walk I was picking up the perfect broken shells and started to see the beautiful colors and shapes they had. I also realized that I could use my imagination to see what the shells could look like. I had a smile in my heart. I felt the Lord speak the words my child you are beautiful. And instantly I wanted to say no, I can’t see that. But, He did not let me rest there. The Lord rushed to my soul and said I created you, I chose you, and you are mine….that is when I felt Beautiful.

He has created you and me to be exactly who we are. Our beauty is represented inside and out. He has chosen me and you to spend eternity with Him. We are His forever.

You created my inmost being; you knit me together
in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am
fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
Psalm 139:13-14

Continuing my walk I had a few of the world’s perfect shells in my right pocket and an overflowing left pocket of broken shells. Both hands full of broken shells I passed a man,
He said to me looks like you have found treasures. Beaming I smiled and said I sure did.
For the first time I realize we're all broken in some way at some moment in life. In fact we don’t get to choose our brokenness. But we do get to choose the way we deal with it.
FOREVER HIS
My Beloved continue to speak to my heart,
reveal yourself to me in ways that I know
is only of you.

When I looked up the word broken in the Thesaurus I found
Shattered
Defeated
Cracked
Smashed
Damaged
Ruined
Destroyed
Without Hope
Defeated
Crushed
Can you identify with any of these? I can and if it were not for His Amazing Grace I could be stuck here.
…..The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.
Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.
1Samuel 16:7

I would like to take a moment to thank my friend Amy from Atlanta who met me at the beach. This was a big step for me. Seems like in the past few months I have had many big steps or I could say first in my new roll as single person. I am learning life doesn’t always go the way we like it. However, in embracing the moments I am choosing not be ruled by my circumstance and the roller coaster of emotions.
Amy, you will never know just what it meant to me to have you there as emotional support. For those of you who don't know. Amy and I met while I was living in Waynesboro, VA and have never loss touch with each other. There is no doubt that the Lord crossed our paths and I am forever grateful.