Where do I go from here...

I know it has been a while since I have posted. Not only has it been a while but it has been a journey. I know I am not through this journey infact I can not even see the end ahead. I think that is a good thing. I have come to realize the journey did not just start with my recent pain the past few years. The journey started on October 11th my birthday. I realize that God created me for a purpose and I have been living my own purpose and my own desires for my life. I am thankful in the midst of my successes and failures in life he has embrassed me in all of them. He has, and is, giving me a story and a life to share. I have to say that I am not alone and I know this. Even in the midst of some lonely times He embraces me in such a way that awes me. What a Beloved. There are a lot of things that don't make sense and little by little I am settling down to know that this is OK. Life doesn't have to always make sense. I do not know where I am going from here...but I know He is leading me. My trust is in Him and I pray that The Lord will keep me close at His side and my eyes fully focused on Him. Life is hard. So, where do I go from here...I am glad He knows. I have no idea. At one time in my life I would have been frightened by that idea. Now, I am just taking one step at a time and trusting My Beloved. The Lover of my soul.